Badly written Malaysia trip

Feb 2: Fly back to my one and only home. Going to be miserable in air for too many hours.
Feb 4: Arrived in the morning, bout 1 am. Picked up by my parents (I miss them more than I know) and came home to see my sis and grandma. Yay! And cats still remembers me! All 4 of them.
Feb 4: Woke up in the morning and had my breakfast! I had 3 meals a day almost most of the time when I was back. Call it glutton or maybe healthy. But I need/want the food. Nyeh. Met up with Ninie and Jay for late lunch and chat till 5! Yah, we're all long-winded. Went for my hair appointment with my sister and spent the next 3-4 hours sitting down to perm and ruin my hair. The things I'd do for a change....
Feb 5: Went out for breakfast with the folks and then went to OU to shop. Bought ridiculously little things and then went home. Met up with Ainul and Sara for dinner (I think). We went to... Hartamas Square. Yah, I remember this. Just not sure which day exactly. Oh well.
Feb 6: CNY eve! I have no idea what I did. Probably stayed home and ate dinner. Went to get pants with brother. Realised haven't really spent time with him in ages. *Edit: Went to run errands, paid for visa. Sigh, how come so boring one?
Feb 7: First day of CNY! I also don't remember what we did. Got angpows!
*Gosh memory failing!!!*
Feb 8 : Hung out at home and then went out for dinner with pookie. It's been a while. Went for Sundanese food in KLCC and stopped by Sky Bar in Traders Hotel. It was pretty nice. Some friends stopped by the place after that and we had some mamak. Saw Joon, Sam and LG.
Feb 9 : Met up with long lost Wei Liang! We had the most ridiculously priced hawker food in The Gardens. Midvalley is so difficult to recognize now. Haven't seen him for...as long as I've left for US. Btw, I found the card that he gave me right before I left. The dollar bills have long been stolen, but card still around. A dollar (ringgit) for every bad movie we saw together.
Feb 10: Went to uncle's place and listened to the folks chat while watching the Banquet, I think. Then went for dinner at Secret Recipe with Jay, Sara and Ninie. I have videos and photos on my phone as proof!
Feb 12: Had to wake up really early to go change my visa status at the embassy. Surprisingly done really quickly. Met up with KM, went to some place in OU for a while. Got him to buy cookies! (ok, inside joke). Was chatting with sis later that night,then fell asleep like in 2 seconds after last sentence. Getting old....
Feb 13: Went to Sungei Wang to see and maybe shop for some la la clothes (:p) and met up with the monkey. Came home to have dinner.
Feb 14: Went to OU to walk walk and then picked up visa. Watched Kung Fu Dunk at that place in the Curve. It was pretty amusing, but of no value. How come CNY movies this year got no CNY feel one ha? Came home for dinner and ran out to meet the girls real quick at Carl's Jr. Then came home for pai tin kung. I like some old traditions.
Feb 15: Went out with mum and pa, lazed around for afternoon. Brought cat to the vet with sis. Sasha's claw was growing into her paw, ouch. Uncle and family stopped by. Didn't know that one of my cousins is married. With a baby! So excited. Went to Atrium late at night. Gosh, it was so...not nice. The company was nice but the crowd left a lot to be desired. Or maybe I'm getting old.
Feb 16: Went for lunch with Winnie and Joshy....in the Jap place where the servers dressed up as ninjas. It seemed like they were throwing us out before we were finished cause they were closing. Crap. Then went for a drink somemore to catch up more! It's always fun to chat and bitch with them. Went out with KM and played mahjong! There were so many zha wu's that you can't believe. How can someone have zha wu with four feis?? Hahahaha....was suppose to meet Fiong later that night. Unfortunately, some things happened along the way and had to sort of ffk her. I feel really bad. Sorry Fiong!
Feb 17: Mum,pa,sis and I went to watch CJ7. It could have been better but I did laugh a lot. What can I say, I'm easily amused. Also visited the pasar malam but only for a short while cause it was raining. Bah. Cousin sisters and mum stopped by for dinner that night. My last night. Sigh. All the girls stopped by before I left for the airport too. I'm glad, happy and...I love you girls! Left for airport and had to fly back to Chicago :(

My god, I left out so many things. Meant to write bout all I've ate, but some people may attempt to murder me. For now, this is all I've got. Will be edited. If I remember. And if I have time. Gosh, my writing skill is so crap. Need to write longer and more coherent sentences. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I write what I think And I think with loads of punctuations. Bah.

I am going home! Yay!

Yeap, be jealous. I'm going home for Chinese New Year. It's for all of two weeks only, but hey, I'm happy with what I can get. So, I plan to :

1) Celebrate CNY! Yay!
2) Eat
3) Play mahjong!
4) Meet everyone that I can possibly squeeze into the 2 weeks time frame
5) Rest (yeah right)
6) Spend time with my family
7) I'm very open to suggestions

Will write more when I'm in the mood. Now my back aches. It feels like crap. Argh. Ok, later.

I will NOT complain about the weather...yet

Hi all!

I am writing because I am very bored of studying. And because I'm excited but too lazy to pack. Tomorrow will be the first time I'm sort of going away from the city since I've got to Chicago. I think this is the longest I've stayed put ever since I came to the States. I've been here for six months thus far and I desperately need a vacation. The kind where you laze around and not do anything. Yeap, like that trip to Lang Tengah, that was pretty relaxing. Eat, snorkel, swim, eat and then sleep. Repeat. I likey. Who's up for a trip like that?

Anyhoooo, to the hordes of complaining people, I will try to reply to my MSN messages as prompt as I can be. But rest assured, most of the time I do reply. Even if it's been a week or two. But I reply! Ok, I know. My bad.

Nah, some photos taken during one the friends farewell. She's going back to Malaysia and will get to celebrate CNY before she comes back (jealous betul).

CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR ENGAGEMENT!!!

I will try my very best to come home for your wedding when it's confirmed. It's nice that I got to meet him and see you guys together. Take loads of pictures of your engagement and send them to me alrighty?

To the rest of you, please follow suit and go get married. Fast, you don't want to get left behind, do you? Hmmmmm?

There should always be clear roadsigns in life

Hi,

Have you ever lost something very dear to you? In which you then grieve over your lost for a period of time. And then just as you begin to get used to your lost, unexpectedly a new one falls on your lap. With the new, you start out comparing it to the old, how it's better in some ways but how it also doesn't live up to the predecessors shadow. It'll take you a while to get use to the new, given your attachment to the old. And recently, you decided that maybe you have warmed up to the new. And also, that's when out of the blue, the old decides to reappear. Now you have the old and the new. Do you stick with the new because...it's new and it's a new choice? Or do you revert back to the old, which you've once grown very attached to?

It's not nice to have someone as fickle as me make such decisions.

It's me again

Oola,

Here are some pictures that I stole from everyone else cause I haven't been taking pictures thus far.

Stolen from Cadence, taken while she was in town with Mario.

Also stolen from Cadence. Up on Hancock Tower, you should be able to see the Chicago skyline in the picture, but cannot. Oh well.

Taken at the Pride Parade. The poodle cute hor? Her name is Yaya.

Ever since I saw that donut walking around I wanted to punch it.

Alrighty, thats all for now folks. I'm actually cleaning my house and because I love to procrastinate when I'm doing boring stuff, I uploaded pictures to my blog. How wonderful. Oh and I think I'm very confused on typing because I've been using Unix at work and now I keep pressing the Esc button and from time to time, I will do weird stuff when I'm using normal programs like Word. This is horrible. My typing is now even worse than before! How can. Ok enough rants. Gonna go clean up. Ta!

Weddings weddings weddings

I was going through my Friendster list and I realised many of my friends got married. But I still have yet to attend a wedding! I mean, those which are not family or neighbours or stuff like that. The ones where I personally know the bride/groom and can make fun of them. You see, at this age, when everyone is getting married, I should be complaining of the tonnes of wedding I have to attend. But nooooooo, I have to pester everyone around me to get married. And when they actually do, I can't attend the weddings. If you're in a stable relationship, chances are, I've hinted/suggested/asked/forced you to get married. But no luck so far in getting one around Chicago. I'm not in a relationship now, so don't throw me those "You get married la, then you can attend your own wedding". Hello, I want to attend YOUR wedding, not MINE. I don't want to spend ages planning. I just want to be able to torture the groom with wasabi-laden crackers, soy sauce shots and jalapeno snorts. Then collect some money in return and at night, get to dress up and have dinner on your important night. Sounds fun right?? Someone get married quick!

This is a happier post

Halu all,

It's been a while since I've posted something happy. This may not be a happy post but at least it's not sad. It may be stupid though, no promises.

Remember a while ago I had flying watermelon in my apartment? Well, yesterday I decided I wanted to have a quick meal, so I threw a pack of tong fun (or su-un), some vege and some meat into a pot of broth and wala...a meal. Then as I was happily balancing the big bowl in one hand, a plate of chili and a container of leftovers in another, I walked over to my desk/dinner table/coffee table/shelf/utilities table/anything you can think of. I was nearly nearly nearly there when the plate with chili decides to give way and plopped on my cream colored carpet. If watermelon stains weren't bad enough, now I had to get rid of chili stains. So much of Fantastik went on the carpet again. Aih. It's still slightly pinkish but it doesn't look like someone died here anymore though. Or at least it looks like a badly cleaned up crime scene now instead of a fresh one. I'm clumsy, I know.

Soooo anyway, I'm blogging because I want to escape from studying. Haha, yes, I blog to escape. From anything I don't want to do. Yeap. And after Wednesday, its either I'll put up a barrage of entries or there will be none for a very long time. I want to put up pictures but I'm still waiting for them from my friends here. Cannot hint on my blog cause they don't know about it. I will make sure I hint big big on MSN later. Oh well.

BTW, if you guys are thinking that I'm suffering big time in Chicago from the previous entries, I'm not. I was actually really enjoying it till like a month ago when work became busier and exams came close. And now I'm quarantined till when the exam is over. Then I will hopefully be able to enjoy what's left of summer. As I've said above, I blog to escape but then I don't blog to escape from good times, so not much good things here. I will do that soon when I'm free. But then when I'm free I want to go out and play, so hence the dilemma you see. Just want to leave a note that I'm fine and dandy again for now. But when I hit rough patches, I will blog 5 liners and get everyone thinking that I might commit suicide in a blink of an eye. Till then, tata!

Hi,

It's been a very challenging week for me. There's so much I want to write but there's also so much that I can't publish here. There are decisions to be made and I can't seem to make any at the moment. There have been so many ups and downs that it has made a quiet day without any thinking, responsibility and company very precious to me. I know this entry will not make sense because there is no explanation to why I feel the way I do, but the thing is, I can't explain. If you care about me, just root for me in your heart, that everything will be fine in the end. Hopefully, when the time comes, I would have a better post with a crystal clear explanation for everyone to know. But till then, wish me luck.

Chicago, thus far

Hello,

It's been awhile hasn't it? Life has been very busy and hectic. But then again, when is it ever not busy and hectic, right? Summer is a great time to be in Chicago. There are loads to do and I've made some really good friends here so far. I've just spent my entire weekend out and just having fun. But now that I'm back home, suddenly, I'm getting pangs of homesickness.

I hate being so far from home. I hate being away from people that I care about and that cares about me. I hate having to survive on my own. I hate having to do everything for myself.

I just want everything to be alright from now onwards.

I'm not depressed or unhappy now. I just wish I was home. It's not about the food, weather or places. It's because it will always be my home and it will always be my special place in this whole wide world. Always.

:(

Today wasn't a happy day. So while I was walking home, I flipped open my phone to call someone to talk to. And then I got disappointed. Because I just realised that there's no one I could call. And now that I'm home and finished with my chores, I think I'm slumped into depression again.

Edit: I wrote that on Tuesday. I think I was really unhappy that day. Though now, if you asked me why, I can't put my finger on it. Am I happy today? Not really, no. But I'm not unhappy. Life is turning into one big routine now. I don't like it but I think I need it for now. At least till I'm done with my exams. Or when I give up with them. Aih. Dunno la. I'm just in the mood for ranting again today. I think my blog is one big rant fest. But then it's better than bitching about other people right? At least I rant about my own stuff.

Man U yay!

Ok, this post has nothing to do with Man U or football. I just had to harp it.

I'm listening to BassAgents while typing this post. So hard to sit quietly and blog. I usually don't like hard dance like this, but this I actually quite likey. Damn noisy, hope my neighbours don't mind. Ok, this can be ignored too cause it has nothing to do with this post actually.

What is this post about? I have no idea yet. I just felt like I needed to write something. To keep those 6 ppl, in Msia, Uk and somewhere in Europe updated. Though I have a feeling not all 6 reads, but some will read and tell the others, so ok la. Hopefully.

*Edit*
So initially I had nothing to write about but now I do. SO, after taking a nice shower and deciding I should have watermelon followed by an awesome Baileys milkshake, I walk into the kitchen and grabbed the box of watermelon. I was walking out, busy stabbing at one of the pieces when the opened box hit the wardrobe door and the whole thing fell. 5 pieces of watermelon went flying on my cream colored carpet. I wanted to cry. It looked like someone had been stabbed a few gazillion times and left to die in my apartment. And I brilliantly tried to clean it by spraying loads of Fantastik on it while pouring water and frantically putting Bounty all over the stains. I hope it works. As of now, it's still wet so I can't tell. Please let it be normal again *prays*.

Trust me to give you stupid acts like this. Argh.

What I have done in Chicago thus far

Nothing.

Besides look for an apartment, I've spent most of my time in the hotel. One huge reason is due to the fact that I think its cold outside. So far, I've ventured out only to get food, look for an apartment, and meet up with a friend. Yeap, thats it. For three days. And I spent a lot of moolah online yesterday to make my apartment decent. I kept reminding myself to be thrifty and what not, but I just kept buying more and more. I love to be comfortable and cosy in my own place and thus a barebones apartment will just not cut it for me. But whats been deterring me from spending a fortune is that I don't actually have a fortune. Duh. Oh well.

On to other territories, I think that between last year and this year, I know a lot of people (myself included) who had hit some bad turf. Its probably due to our life changes, and I guess it is part of growing up. More often than not, we will all dwell in it and at that moment, it seems like its not worth it to be doing what we've been doing all this while. I can't say for sure that we will all survive every depressing moment and come out on the very top the next second, like how you see in movies. What I can say is that when things get rough, you can count on your friends to be there for you. They may not be able to pull you up, but sometimes, just knowing that you have their support can be good enough. I know that I'm not the best listener nor do I have a lot of time to spare, but I do sincerely want my friends to know that when it matters, they can count on me. Ok, sappy and unrelated, I know. I just had to say it.

So, anyway, I need to shower. Bye.

More rantings

Every morning when I wake up, the first thing on my mind is what else do I have to do today? This is then followed by the counting of how many days do I have left. And a few days ago, I have been calling MAS to reschedule my flight, but its all fully booked. All the way to April 26th. All I wanted was a couple more days, but nope, no avail seats maam. And after the initial dread, then comes the headache of the logistic issues when I get to Chicago. It never ends. To top it off, its not even noon yet.
Now till Sunday, my days will be short and my nights even shorter. I hate wasting time not doing what I really want to do. I don't know how it may feel like once I get to Chicago, but I'm hoping that it won't go downhill. I think already know how the sequence of my emotional rollercoaster would be once I get there. It starts off depressing when I initially arrive, and then when I get busy trying to settle down, I would have my mind off things and that would make it fine, for a while. And then one night after some time when I have time to ponder on things, then it won't be so pretty again. Sigh. So the key is to keep myself occupied until I come home again. At least thats what the best way I know off. Any better suggestions?

No, I don't.

I don't want to be the one that has to leave.

I don't want to be the one who spends endless sleepless nights thinking of how it is back home.

I don't want to be the one who dwells on what it would be like if only she had stayed.

I don't want to be the one who is all alone in a city where her best friends are at least a few hundred miles away.

I don't want to be the one who has to be independent all the time.

I don't want to be the one who you expect to act rationally.

I don't want to be the one who thinks with her brain and not her heart.

I don't want to be the one who is always in your thoughts, but rarely in your arms.

I don't want to be the one who would sacrifice her life for puny returns.

I don't want to be the one who you had to let go.

I don't want to be the one who had to let you go.

I don't want to do this anymore.

I want to stay.

X X X

Its going to be April real soon. Too soon. In fact, it will never be late enough. Its not the fact that I would have to go back to the real world and start working that is bothering me. Its the fact that I have to fly thousands of miles away to be able to that, comfortably. I always thought I'd be at least a little excited to be working and earning more money than I ever had in my life. But until now, all I feel is dread. I dread everything to come, knowing that its away from anything familiar. I don't want to have to go through time and again. Can anyone please come and tell with much hope and faith that they know for sure that things will get better? That it won't go downhill from here. That I will be as happy again. Please?

College

Was going through some old pics and decided to put them up here, for reminiscence sake. Don't tell me how different I look, cause I think I still look the same. The only thing that changes constantly is the hair and body weight. Yala I know, now I'm fatter. Dowan to listen. Hmh.






Sometimes I miss college. My schedule was so flexible back then. It was very flexible because I chose my subjects according to their time slots, which in turn caused me to have a plethora of weird subjects being transferred. But then, a lot of the subjects were fun and I ended up liking them a lot.

Annoyed, very

Something happened just awhile ago, and it made me think of the kind of people that annoy me. People who are spoilt, and expects everyone to spoil them too. Don't get me wrong, I am not jealous or pissed at spoilt people. I have plenty of spoilt friends (not in a bad way), and I think they are lucky. I have no problems with them at all. I start having a problem when they expect me to spoil them and give in to their every whim. I get incredibly annoyed when they say whatever they want, whenever they want, and worst of all, when they feel threatened, their best defense is to lash out at you. What gets me the most is, when people thinks that the world revolves around them and that they are the best. These people are extremely competitive and are also sore losers. They try to paint a beautiful picture of themselves, showing that they are nice, but more often than not, they do this at the expense of others. Pushing blame and lying. Oh yes lying, they are also the best liars I've known. Fools everyone. Until you get to know them better.

I know this kind of entry will get most people reading it to think "Is she talking about me?". If you want to know, ask me. I'll tell you. But I don't think the people I'm talking about reads my blog. And trust me, I'll be truthful and honest with you. I'm very annoyed just thinking about some of the things that have happened. And when I am annoyed, people can tell. I don't like to pretend to be nice to everyone when I, in fact don't like them. If I have a problem with you, most probably, you'll know it. But once this problem is solved, then all with be fine again. I prefer that over pretending to be nice and friendly, but hate the person and complain to everyone behind his/her back. I don't think I get pissed off easily (though some may disagree), and its not hard for me to let it go either, most of the time. Ok, after typing for so long, now I'm bored and no longer that annoyed. See, I get over it pretty fast.

Fatso

I think I'm having a mid-holiday crisis. Which is when I've come to realise that my holiday is about to end. And I have to slave off the rest of my life. Or hopefully a rich charming man would come sweep me off my feet and I don't have to do anything I don't want anymore. On top of that, everyone seems concerned that I would gain weight during my holiday. I say would, not has ok.

Concern friend (CF) 1 : Eh, don't eat so much. Later fat ar.
Me : That's my first bite ><><

C Family : When I saw you, I thought you lost weight.
Me : Really? :)
CFam : Yeah, then I realised it was your sister.
Me : (stupid), err...so..I didn't lose weight la?
CFam : Actually hor, I think you gained weight lor.
Me : Argh.

Me : I'm hungry. Can you get me some food?
CF 4 : Its after 10pm. You shouldn't eat.
Me : But I'm hungry :( *pathetic, sad look*
CF 4 : You don't need the food, look, you have extras *poke*, see..*poke*
Me :....Go away.

Takkan I don't eat Malaysian food right?? I've been craving it for months, no wait, for more than a year! But then I also refuse to look like a dumpling. How??? Oh, I am also very lazy. Pig mar. My year, gotta enjoy it.