I am going home! Yay!

Yeap, be jealous. I'm going home for Chinese New Year. It's for all of two weeks only, but hey, I'm happy with what I can get. So, I plan to :

1) Celebrate CNY! Yay!
2) Eat
3) Play mahjong!
4) Meet everyone that I can possibly squeeze into the 2 weeks time frame
5) Rest (yeah right)
6) Spend time with my family
7) I'm very open to suggestions

Will write more when I'm in the mood. Now my back aches. It feels like crap. Argh. Ok, later.

Thank you for being there, always

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I tried to get the most similar pictures but not all came out successful. So, make do. Heh. I spent a lot of time looking and uploading. I'm so proud of myself :)

I'm da coming to da DSM

Haru,

Quick update. I'm going to DSM on Friday! Yay!

But arriving like very early Saturday instead. Boo!

Though you people in DSM should still be prepared to be disturbed by me. Yay!

Ok enough, gotta go now. More later.

I will NOT complain about the weather...yet

Hi all!

I am writing because I am very bored of studying. And because I'm excited but too lazy to pack. Tomorrow will be the first time I'm sort of going away from the city since I've got to Chicago. I think this is the longest I've stayed put ever since I came to the States. I've been here for six months thus far and I desperately need a vacation. The kind where you laze around and not do anything. Yeap, like that trip to Lang Tengah, that was pretty relaxing. Eat, snorkel, swim, eat and then sleep. Repeat. I likey. Who's up for a trip like that?

Anyhoooo, to the hordes of complaining people, I will try to reply to my MSN messages as prompt as I can be. But rest assured, most of the time I do reply. Even if it's been a week or two. But I reply! Ok, I know. My bad.

Nah, some photos taken during one the friends farewell. She's going back to Malaysia and will get to celebrate CNY before she comes back (jealous betul).

CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR ENGAGEMENT!!!

I will try my very best to come home for your wedding when it's confirmed. It's nice that I got to meet him and see you guys together. Take loads of pictures of your engagement and send them to me alrighty?

To the rest of you, please follow suit and go get married. Fast, you don't want to get left behind, do you? Hmmmmm?

There should always be clear roadsigns in life

Hi,

Have you ever lost something very dear to you? In which you then grieve over your lost for a period of time. And then just as you begin to get used to your lost, unexpectedly a new one falls on your lap. With the new, you start out comparing it to the old, how it's better in some ways but how it also doesn't live up to the predecessors shadow. It'll take you a while to get use to the new, given your attachment to the old. And recently, you decided that maybe you have warmed up to the new. And also, that's when out of the blue, the old decides to reappear. Now you have the old and the new. Do you stick with the new because...it's new and it's a new choice? Or do you revert back to the old, which you've once grown very attached to?

It's not nice to have someone as fickle as me make such decisions.

It's me again

Oola,

Here are some pictures that I stole from everyone else cause I haven't been taking pictures thus far.

Stolen from Cadence, taken while she was in town with Mario.

Also stolen from Cadence. Up on Hancock Tower, you should be able to see the Chicago skyline in the picture, but cannot. Oh well.

Taken at the Pride Parade. The poodle cute hor? Her name is Yaya.

Ever since I saw that donut walking around I wanted to punch it.

Alrighty, thats all for now folks. I'm actually cleaning my house and because I love to procrastinate when I'm doing boring stuff, I uploaded pictures to my blog. How wonderful. Oh and I think I'm very confused on typing because I've been using Unix at work and now I keep pressing the Esc button and from time to time, I will do weird stuff when I'm using normal programs like Word. This is horrible. My typing is now even worse than before! How can. Ok enough rants. Gonna go clean up. Ta!

Weddings weddings weddings

I was going through my Friendster list and I realised many of my friends got married. But I still have yet to attend a wedding! I mean, those which are not family or neighbours or stuff like that. The ones where I personally know the bride/groom and can make fun of them. You see, at this age, when everyone is getting married, I should be complaining of the tonnes of wedding I have to attend. But nooooooo, I have to pester everyone around me to get married. And when they actually do, I can't attend the weddings. If you're in a stable relationship, chances are, I've hinted/suggested/asked/forced you to get married. But no luck so far in getting one around Chicago. I'm not in a relationship now, so don't throw me those "You get married la, then you can attend your own wedding". Hello, I want to attend YOUR wedding, not MINE. I don't want to spend ages planning. I just want to be able to torture the groom with wasabi-laden crackers, soy sauce shots and jalapeno snorts. Then collect some money in return and at night, get to dress up and have dinner on your important night. Sounds fun right?? Someone get married quick!

This is a happier post

Halu all,

It's been a while since I've posted something happy. This may not be a happy post but at least it's not sad. It may be stupid though, no promises.

Remember a while ago I had flying watermelon in my apartment? Well, yesterday I decided I wanted to have a quick meal, so I threw a pack of tong fun (or su-un), some vege and some meat into a pot of broth and wala...a meal. Then as I was happily balancing the big bowl in one hand, a plate of chili and a container of leftovers in another, I walked over to my desk/dinner table/coffee table/shelf/utilities table/anything you can think of. I was nearly nearly nearly there when the plate with chili decides to give way and plopped on my cream colored carpet. If watermelon stains weren't bad enough, now I had to get rid of chili stains. So much of Fantastik went on the carpet again. Aih. It's still slightly pinkish but it doesn't look like someone died here anymore though. Or at least it looks like a badly cleaned up crime scene now instead of a fresh one. I'm clumsy, I know.

Soooo anyway, I'm blogging because I want to escape from studying. Haha, yes, I blog to escape. From anything I don't want to do. Yeap. And after Wednesday, its either I'll put up a barrage of entries or there will be none for a very long time. I want to put up pictures but I'm still waiting for them from my friends here. Cannot hint on my blog cause they don't know about it. I will make sure I hint big big on MSN later. Oh well.

BTW, if you guys are thinking that I'm suffering big time in Chicago from the previous entries, I'm not. I was actually really enjoying it till like a month ago when work became busier and exams came close. And now I'm quarantined till when the exam is over. Then I will hopefully be able to enjoy what's left of summer. As I've said above, I blog to escape but then I don't blog to escape from good times, so not much good things here. I will do that soon when I'm free. But then when I'm free I want to go out and play, so hence the dilemma you see. Just want to leave a note that I'm fine and dandy again for now. But when I hit rough patches, I will blog 5 liners and get everyone thinking that I might commit suicide in a blink of an eye. Till then, tata!

Hi,

It's been a very challenging week for me. There's so much I want to write but there's also so much that I can't publish here. There are decisions to be made and I can't seem to make any at the moment. There have been so many ups and downs that it has made a quiet day without any thinking, responsibility and company very precious to me. I know this entry will not make sense because there is no explanation to why I feel the way I do, but the thing is, I can't explain. If you care about me, just root for me in your heart, that everything will be fine in the end. Hopefully, when the time comes, I would have a better post with a crystal clear explanation for everyone to know. But till then, wish me luck.

Chicago, thus far

Hello,

It's been awhile hasn't it? Life has been very busy and hectic. But then again, when is it ever not busy and hectic, right? Summer is a great time to be in Chicago. There are loads to do and I've made some really good friends here so far. I've just spent my entire weekend out and just having fun. But now that I'm back home, suddenly, I'm getting pangs of homesickness.

I hate being so far from home. I hate being away from people that I care about and that cares about me. I hate having to survive on my own. I hate having to do everything for myself.

I just want everything to be alright from now onwards.

I'm not depressed or unhappy now. I just wish I was home. It's not about the food, weather or places. It's because it will always be my home and it will always be my special place in this whole wide world. Always.

:(

Today wasn't a happy day. So while I was walking home, I flipped open my phone to call someone to talk to. And then I got disappointed. Because I just realised that there's no one I could call. And now that I'm home and finished with my chores, I think I'm slumped into depression again.

Edit: I wrote that on Tuesday. I think I was really unhappy that day. Though now, if you asked me why, I can't put my finger on it. Am I happy today? Not really, no. But I'm not unhappy. Life is turning into one big routine now. I don't like it but I think I need it for now. At least till I'm done with my exams. Or when I give up with them. Aih. Dunno la. I'm just in the mood for ranting again today. I think my blog is one big rant fest. But then it's better than bitching about other people right? At least I rant about my own stuff.

Trip #1 - Chicago

I had a bunch of friends come over to Chicago for the weekend. I think it was our first gathering since...too long ago. But fear not, cause there will be lots more! We (at least I am) already planning the next one. Everyone agreed that it was incredible fun and wonderful. Friends came with their friends and at one point, there were 11 people sleeping in my tiny apartment. Almost all floor space was taken up, but it was all good. I love to have people (that I like) visit me, so come come.

I can post up pictures, but the person who had a camera with him has not sent them to me (hint hint). So none as yet.

I have never imagined that I would make such good friends when I flew over to this country nearly 3 years ago. But I did. And I'm very happy and glad that they are now part of my life. A bunch of us keep in very close contact (ie work email everyday) and I think it helps keep me going. It's a support system that I'm very fortunate to have. I do hope we can stay this way as long as possible and not let anything get in the way. You know who you are, so I don't think I need to say more.

Ok, I will post more about the trip later la.

I am so not domestic....and am not made to be

I have a long post coming. I can feel it. It's related to the topic. But not today. Today, it ends here :p

Man U yay!

Ok, this post has nothing to do with Man U or football. I just had to harp it.

I'm listening to BassAgents while typing this post. So hard to sit quietly and blog. I usually don't like hard dance like this, but this I actually quite likey. Damn noisy, hope my neighbours don't mind. Ok, this can be ignored too cause it has nothing to do with this post actually.

What is this post about? I have no idea yet. I just felt like I needed to write something. To keep those 6 ppl, in Msia, Uk and somewhere in Europe updated. Though I have a feeling not all 6 reads, but some will read and tell the others, so ok la. Hopefully.

*Edit*
So initially I had nothing to write about but now I do. SO, after taking a nice shower and deciding I should have watermelon followed by an awesome Baileys milkshake, I walk into the kitchen and grabbed the box of watermelon. I was walking out, busy stabbing at one of the pieces when the opened box hit the wardrobe door and the whole thing fell. 5 pieces of watermelon went flying on my cream colored carpet. I wanted to cry. It looked like someone had been stabbed a few gazillion times and left to die in my apartment. And I brilliantly tried to clean it by spraying loads of Fantastik on it while pouring water and frantically putting Bounty all over the stains. I hope it works. As of now, it's still wet so I can't tell. Please let it be normal again *prays*.

Trust me to give you stupid acts like this. Argh.

June, please come.

Haven't been updating much at all lately. But now I am, so la la la.

Anyway, I've recently decided that I need a mp3 player. Badly. Cause my comp at work doesn't have the soundcard driver installed due to a bunch of reasons. So it gets boring plus it will help block out sounds when I'm doing my FAP modules (non-actsci, it's exam related). So, I went researching online and fell in love with the iRiver Clix2. One bad thing is that the 8gb version will only be released in June. I need it now!!! What will I do till June?? I'm not too keen on buying an Ipod, but if I'm desperate, should I? But I like the iRiver aloooot. AAAHHH. Dilemma.

On other notes, I wanna talk about my apartment. Ok, just the location for now. Right across of the building is......the Playboy headquarters! Yes, it is. I have been keeping a lookout for their models but no luck so far. Hehe...bet more of you wanna come visit me now huh. And right beside, blocking 50% of my beautiful lakeview is a hotel. I have full view of a lot of the rooms. One night, I was standing at the window and looking across, I was curious if I can see any hanky panky going on. But there was none. Till now, I haven't seen anyone that has forgotten to pull the blinds down. Hehe. Oh well. I do not spy or stalk ok. And down the street, there's a hospital really nearby. Just in case of an emergency, it'll be really close.

I was told that the pool in my building overlooks the lake. One day, I shall check it out. Okie, enough for now. Ta!

The world is full of hope

Last night, I went out for dinner with some friends. We ate some Chinese food in well, Chinatown, but there were so much talking going around that I didn't really enjoy the food cause everyone was engrossed in one conversation after another. They were a fun bunch. So after that, we went to play pool at a place nearby.

At the pool place, there was a boy who was working at the counter, bartending I suppose and just looking after the cash till. And there was a girl there also, just hanging around and playing with her phone. We were playing doubles so I had time to sit and look around alot and I was watching the couple for a while. They were so sweet. I think this can be accounted to the Canto songs that was playing in the back ground and the setting of the place. They were just running into each others arms, hugging, and snuggling. Then at one point in time, she jumped onto his back for a piggy back ride. It was as if I was watching a movie, and this was a flashback of the main character's first/puppy/young love. I kept telling everyone that they're so sweet, and cute. What was the comeback? "You jealous ar?" Haha, yah actually a little. I wish I was that young again, when the world was so much simpler. One of my friends there said something which I agreed was so true. *This is translated from Cantonese, and it sounds much better in its original form*
-When we are young, we are not afraid of loving and hating-
And as we grow older, we get hurt and we hurt others in the process. Then it is as if we had learnt earlier on how it will hurt if we burnt our hands, we try to keep ourselves safe and out of harm. We are then no longer the young naive girl/boy that is full of hope anymore. We are not longer not afraid.
But what I saw last night, I thought it was very pure and sweet. Yeah, in a smoky pool place.

back online!

Hi,

I've not been posting because I didn't have internet in my apartment for the past week. I think I had some withdrawal syndromes, but nothing major since I could still surf at work. Which I actually try to do minimally. So if I don't reply msgs at work, its not cause I don't like you, its cause I just try not to. Or maybe I really don't like you. Oh well.

Anyway, my apartment is still sort of bare, but its getting better. Was suppose to get a coffee table this weekend, but I'm just too lazy today, so maybe next week. I gotta get out and take a walk cause its so pretty outside. Very sunny and finally warm. I can't wait for actual spring weather! La la la. Anyhoo, so, yeah. I don't have much to say yet, but soon, I may come up with a post so long that your eyes glaze over just looking at it. But not now. Now, its gonna be a short one which ends here. Or here.

No, here.

If I am god, then

I want things to get better now. Right now!

What I have done in Chicago thus far

Nothing.

Besides look for an apartment, I've spent most of my time in the hotel. One huge reason is due to the fact that I think its cold outside. So far, I've ventured out only to get food, look for an apartment, and meet up with a friend. Yeap, thats it. For three days. And I spent a lot of moolah online yesterday to make my apartment decent. I kept reminding myself to be thrifty and what not, but I just kept buying more and more. I love to be comfortable and cosy in my own place and thus a barebones apartment will just not cut it for me. But whats been deterring me from spending a fortune is that I don't actually have a fortune. Duh. Oh well.

On to other territories, I think that between last year and this year, I know a lot of people (myself included) who had hit some bad turf. Its probably due to our life changes, and I guess it is part of growing up. More often than not, we will all dwell in it and at that moment, it seems like its not worth it to be doing what we've been doing all this while. I can't say for sure that we will all survive every depressing moment and come out on the very top the next second, like how you see in movies. What I can say is that when things get rough, you can count on your friends to be there for you. They may not be able to pull you up, but sometimes, just knowing that you have their support can be good enough. I know that I'm not the best listener nor do I have a lot of time to spare, but I do sincerely want my friends to know that when it matters, they can count on me. Ok, sappy and unrelated, I know. I just had to say it.

So, anyway, I need to shower. Bye.